Alhamdulillah

Looking back to all of these years, I never thought that I’ve survived from struggles & difficulties of life.I’ve been to so many places where I’ve met lots of friends & foes.I’ve done a lot of jobs, from a housekeeper to a cook.I never got the chance to taste wealth but I’ve gain a lots of experience from my journey from a boy to a man.Some may call me a loser for not gaining any success in my life, I got no certification, I got no fancy ride, I got no girlfriend…all I got are my guts & heart.I got faith in Allah, He is my wealth & eternal love.I’ve been lost & astray for a long long time before, but He never neglected me.Its okay for me to live & die alone.I’ve lived half of my life living my live alone without anyone to hear my restless moan.But He is the one who listen.

Burn Fire, Metal Fire III

Greetings to all of you.I’ve been waiting for my bandmates to upload a bunch of photos captured during the recording session.Now, here they are.Enjoy!!!

I Dreamed A Dream

Greetings, to all readers.It’s been a while since my last post.I don’t know what to write actually.But tonight, I’m going to write something about self – confidence & self – motivation.I just want share something that created me to what I am today.Just watch all of the videos below.(Thanks YouTube!)

Just shed those tears & go live your dreams.

Vespa & Obsession

Vespa is my obsession.I love how they looks.A magnificent job by the Italians.I fell in love with the scooter at first sight.I didn’t take a long time to bought my first scooter.RM 300.00 Vespa Super 150cc in red, without any black & white documents when I was 21 years old.But the scooter was stolen.I bought a new one 2 years later, a P150S with faded black paint.This one is little bit expensive, but I don’t really care about that.Most of Vespa/Lambretta owners spends more than RM5000.00 for restoration process.Some of them spent more than that.I’ll write more about my obsession later.Got to catch some sleep.

                               Taken at the Mastana gathering back in 2008

Burn Fire, Metal Fire II

Salam, I just got back from Negibanez 1st recording session in a studio located in Shah Alam.We managed to record one song, originally written by Jim Lea & Noddy Holder and made popular by Slade(1973).”Cum On Feel The Noize” was revived by legendary Quiet Riot in 1983 and was subsequently covered by Oasis(1996), Bran Van 3000(1997), Beat Crusaders(2007), 4 Skins(2008).

Our cover version is simple, I’ll post the song & some photos later.

Maxis Broadband Sux!

I had enough with my Maxis Broadband.The connection is so slow.I cant even reach 1mbps.Guess what…the customer service sux too.It took me 1 hour to update my Java from update package 4 to 13.Don’t even dream to download your favourite videos.That will cost you forever.Streamyx are far more better.Maxis sux!Big time!!!

A Song That Touched Me

From those around I hear a Cry,
A muffled sob, a Hopeless sigh,
I hear their footsteps leaving slow,
And then I know my soul must Fly!
A chilly wind begins to blow,
within my soul, from Head to Toe,
And then, Last Breath escapes my lips,
It’s Time to leave. And I must Go!
So, it is True (But it’s too Late)
They said: Each soul has its Given Date,
When it must leave its body’s core,
And meet with its Eternal Fate.

Oh mark the words that I do say,
Who knows? Tomorrow could be your Day,
At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
Decide which now, Do NOT delay !
Come on my brothers let’s pray
Decide which now, Do NOT delay !

Oh God! Oh God! I cannot see !
My eyes are Blind! Am I still Me
Or has my soul been led astray,
And forced to pay a Priceless Fee
Alas to Dust we all return,
Some shall rejoice, while others burn,
If only I knew that before
The line grew short, and came my Turn!
And now, as beneath the sod
They lay me (with my record flawed),
They cry, not knowing I cry worse,
For, they go home, I face my God!

Oh mark the words that I do say,
Who knows, Tomorrow could be your Day,
At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
Decide which now, Do NOT delay !
Come on my brothers let’s pray
Decide which now, do not delay ….

Truth That Hurts

“I’m so tired.”

“Tired of what?”

“Of all these people judging me.”

“Who judged you?”

“Like that woman, every time I sit with her, she tells me to wear hijab.”

“Oh, hijab and music! The mother of all topics!”

“Yeah! I listen to music without hijab…haha!”

“Maybe she was just giving you advice.”

“I don’t need her advice. I know my religion. Can’t she mind her own business?”

“Maybe you misunderstood. She was just being nice.”

“Keeping out of my business, that would be nice…”

“But it’s her duty to encourage you do to good.”

“Trust me. That was no encouragement. And what do you mean `good` ?”

“Well, wearing hijab, that would be a good thing to do.”

“Says who?”

“It’s in the Quran, isn’t it?”

“Yes. She did quote me something.”

“She said Surah Nur, and other places of the Quran.”

“Yes, but it’s not a big sin anyway. Helping people and praying is more important.”

“True. But big things start with small things.”

“That’s a good point, but what you wear is not important. What’s important is to have a good healthy heart.”

“What you wear is not important?”

“That’s what I said.”

“Then why do you spend an hour every morning fixing up?”

“What do you mean?”

“You spend money on cosmetics, not to mention all the time you spend on fixing your hair and low-carb dieting.”

“So?”

“So, your appearance IS important.”

“No. I said wearing hijab is not an important thing in religion.”

“If it’s not an important thing in religion, why is it mentioned in the Noble Quran?”

“You know I can’t follow all that’s in Quran.”

“You mean God tells you something to do, you disobey and then it’s OK?”

“Yes. God is forgiving.”

“God is forgiving to those who repent and do not repeat their mistakes.”

“Says who?”

“Says the same book that tells you to cover.”

“But I don’t like hijab, it limits my freedom.”

“But the lotions, lipsticks, mascara and other cosmetics set you free?! What’s your definition of freedom anyway?”

“Freedom is in doing whatever you like to do.”

“No. Freedom is in doing the right thing, not in doing whatever we wish to do.”

“Look! I’ve seen so many people who don’t wear hijab and are nice people, and so many who wear hijab and are bad people.”

“So what? There are people who are nice to you but are alcoholic. Should we all be alcoholics? You made a stupid point.”

“I don’t want to be an extremist or a fanatic. I’m OK the way I am without hijab.”

“Then you are a secular fanatic. An extremist in disobeying God.”

“You don’t get it, if I wear hijab, who would marry me?!”

“So all these people with hijab never get married?!”

“Okay! What if I get married and my husband doesn’t like it? And wants me to remove it?”

“What if your husband wants you to go out with him on a bank robbery?!”

“That’s irrelevant, bank robbery is a crime.”

“Disobeying your Creator is not a crime?”

“But then who would hire me?”

“A company that respects people for who they are.”

“Not after 9-11″

“Yes. After 9-11. Don’t you know about Hanan who just got into med school? And the other one, what was her name, the girl who always wore a white hijab…ummm…”

“Yasmeen?”

“Yes. Yasmeen. She just finished her MBA and is now interning for GE.”

“Why do you reduce religion to a piece of cloth anyway?”

“Why do you reduce womanhood to high heals and lipstick colors?”

“You didn’t answer my question.”

“In fact, I did. Hijab is not just a piece of cloth. It is obeying God in a difficult environment. It is courage, faith in action, and true womanhood. But your short sleeves, tight pants…”

“That’s called `fashion`, you live in a cave or something? First of all, hijab was founded by men who wanted to control women.”

“Really? I did not know men could control women by hijab.”

“Yes. That’s what it is.”

“What about the women who fight their husbands to wear hijab? And women in France who are forced to remove their hijab by men? What do you say about that?”

“Well, that’s different.”

“What difference? The woman who asked you to wear hijab…she was a woman, right?”

“Right, but…”

“But fashions that are designed and promoted by male-dominated corporations, set you free? Men have no control on exposing women and using them as a commodity?! Give me a break!”

“Wait, let me finish, I was saying…”

“Saying what? You think that men control women by hijab?”

“Yes.”

“Specifically how?”

“By telling women how and what to wear, dummy!”

“Doesn’t TV, magazines and movies tell you what to wear, and how to be`attractive’ ?”

“Of course, it’s fashion.”

“Isn’t that control? Pressuring you to wear what they want you to wear?”

[Silence]

“Not just controlling you, but also controlling the market.”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean, you are told to look skinny and anorexic like that woman on the cover of the magazine, by men who design those magazines and sell those products.”

“I don’t get it. What does hijab have to do with products.”

“It has everything to do with that. Don’t you see? Hijab is a threat to consumerism, women who spend billions of dollars to look skinny and live by standards of fashion designed by men…and then here is Islam, saying trash all that nonsense and focus on your soul, not on your looks, and do not worry what men think of your looks.”

“Like I don’t have to buy hijab? Isn’t hijab a product?”

“Yes, it is. It is a product that sets you free from male-dominated consumerism. “

“Stop lecturing me! I WILL NOT WEAR HIJAB! It is awkward, outdated, and totally not suitable for this society …Moreover, I am only 20 and too young to wear hijab!”

“Fine. Say that to your Lord, when you face Him on Judgment Day.”

***

Nay! You prefer the life of this world; While the hereafter is better and more lasting. [Noble Quran 87:16-17]

You are the best community (Ummah) raised up for (the benefit of) humanity; enjoining what is right and forbidding what is wrong and believing in Allah. [Noble Quran 3:110]

Fully taken from Sis ZaliZabrina’s blog.Thank you,Sis.

Bunuh Diri.Teori & Kaedahnya

 

Okay, saya tidak berminat untuk bertanya kenapa anda membuat keputusan untuk membunuh diri.Saya juga tidak berhak untuk mengadili masalah kamu.Mungkin anda merasakan hidup ini tidak bermakna lagi,atau mungkin anda sudah bosan dengan kehidupan dunia yang berlaku kejam kepada anda.It’s okay to kill yourself, brothers & sisters.Its really hurts when they fired you from your job which is your passion and I do understand the burden that you guys carrying when she/he left you.Believe me, I do.Saya faham.

Berbalik kepada tajuk kita tadi, “Bunuh Diri & Kaedah – Kaedahnya”.Disini saya mempunyai banyak cara atau kaedah untuk membunuh diri.Antara nya, mengelar lengan, mengantung diri, terjun dari tempat yang tinggi, kemalangan yang disengajakan, penggunaan racun, pengambilan dadah secara berlebihan dan lain – lain.Saya akan terangkan satu persatu.

1)Mengelar lengan merupakan kaedah yang  agak mudah iaitu mengerat atau memotong urat saraf yang hampir dengan nadi.That will hurts a lot when blood spits out from your vein.

2)Menggantung diri antara pilihan yang agak baik untuk mereka yang takutkan darah.Kaedah ini agak rumit kerana memerlukan tempat dan alatan yang sesuai untuk memastikan percubaan membunuh diri anda tidak gagal.You guys might need a strong rope that can handle your weight or…yes, a blanket will do.Hanging yourself will break your neck, and of course…its hurts. 

Saya telah menerangkan 2 kaedah yang paling popular untuk membunuh diri.Ya, kebanyakan daripada kaedah – kaedah ini melibatkan kesakitan.Akan tetapi, saya mempunyai kaedah yang tidak melibatkan kesakitan fizikal.Yeah!No pain at all & its easy!

Okay, saya nak anda bertenang.Duduk di satu tempat yang selesa.Tarik nafas & pandang sekeliling anda.Kemudian, tutup kedua – dua mata anda.Ingat kembali kisah – kisah silam, bayangkan perkara yang mendorong anda untuk membunuh diri, bayangkan kesilapan anda, kegagalan hidup, orang yang meninggalkan anda.Kemudian luahkan kekesalan anda kepada diri  sendiri.Hamburkan penyesalan anda.Semuanya.

Pernahkah anda terfikir bahawa ada manusia yang ingin hidup lebih lama tetapi nyawanya diambil terlalu awal sebelum cita – citanya tercapai.Ada juga manusia yang berusaha untuk terus hidup sedangkan dia tidak punya peluang untuk hidup.Mereka ini punya semangat yang kuat untuk tidak mengaku kalah sebelum hembusan nafas yang terakhir.

Jadi mengapa perlu anda mengambil nyawa anda sendiri sedangkan anda tidak punya hak keatasnya?Adakah anda takut untuk berjuang?Takut untuk menerima hakikat & takdir?Tidak, anda tidak perlu takut.Beritahu kepada diri anda yang anda mampu mengubah nasib anda.Mampu untuk memulakan hidup yang baru.Cukuplah penderitaan dan penyesalan yang anda bawa ke hari ini.Cukup hingga setakat ini.

Buka mata anda dan mulakan hidup yang baru.

Courage / Keberanian

Courage by Manowar

“Some Want To Think Hope Is Lost, See Me Stand Alone
I Can’t Do What Others May Want, Then I’ll Have No Home”

“So For Now Wave Good-bye, And Leave Your Hands Held High
Hear This Song Of Courage, Long Into The Night
So For Now Wave Good-bye, Leave Your Hands Held High
Hear This Song Of Courage, Long Into The Night”

“And The Wind Will Bear My Cry, To All Who Hope To Fly
Hear This Song Of Courage, Ride Into The Night”

“Battles Are Fought By Those With The Courage To Believe
They Are Won By Those Who Find The Heart
Find A Heart To Share
This Heart That Fills The Soul Will Point The Way To Victory
If There’s A Fight, Then I’ll Be There I’ll Be There”

“So For Now Wave Good-bye, Leave Your Hands Held High
Hear This Song Of Courage, Long Into The Night
And The Wind Will Bear My Cry, To All Who Hope To Fly
Lift Your Wings Up High My Friend, Fearless To The End
So For Now Wave Good-bye, Leave Your Hands Held High
Hear This Song Of Courage, Long Into The Night “ 

I sings this song as my daily routine.A song that lifts my spirit.Life is a war & only the strongest will survive.Here, listen to this song & you’ll get what I mean.